A lot has happened in the last 24 hours, and my heart, mind and soul are still wheeling from it. No details needed….all I know is I just want whatever this horrible, sad feeling I have to go away. Today I realize I have a robot mode for corporate America. The pain flowed over my eyelids this morning, but once I made it to the job…auto pilot took over, and I was able to work, interact and make it through the day. Now that I am home, however…and the other half is not here, that feeling is that much stronger….I realized I can put on a happy face when needed, and hide my true feelings whenever the situation calls for it… Not sure if that a good thing, or bad thing. I know it’s not good to hold things in the way I do. I have this crazy idea that if I keep my pain on the insides, and just go through life making sure everything, and everyone else is alright then all is well with the world, always neglecting myself, and making sure I’m alright. Eveyone’s happiness and well being before my own. Is it because I love too much? I love hard! And for the people I love I will give up, and sacrifice whatever I have in my power to make sure those I love are ok. If I knew that me not eating for a week, meant my family and loved one’s would could eat for a month…I would do it. I will be okay..I will make it through this rough little moment I am having right now…I have been through and felt WAY WORSE things than what I am going through right now. By faith my situation and my heart, mind and soul are at ease…and I am at peace..*So Blessed Be!!!*
Hey Tumblr buddies! It’s been a minute, I have been a twittering fool, but I promise to be a more active tumblrerr lol. At home, relaxing after getting off work enjoying time with my baby…my number one favorite pass time.
Do you love me more, less, or the same since we have been together? His answer..”Do you believe we grow older with time?” I said yes. “So with time my love has only grown for you,with time thing grow, deeper and more solid…so has my love for you.” Can we say WOW! Lol And yes this man had me crying in the Wendy’s drive through…. Love is my address and I am never ever leaving!
On Friday -April 10, 2010. I went to get my nails done…and there was a young lady getting her nails done, she was getting a pedicure done. She was almost done, the lady doing her feet was putting a design on them. From what I could see, she looked like she may have some kind of health issue. She seemed so frail. Anyway her aunt or whoever comes to check on her. She asked how much it was, and this broad loses it! Going on and on about how much it costs where she go…and it dont cost no$35 for no feet….saying gone call the girl mother and shit. Then it doesn’t end there. Her man or who ever comes in there talking shit to her too, like she was some little fucking kid. Telling her ” You could have waited for that!…you could have waited for that! Yo mama said so too you could have waited for that. Aint nobody say nothing about getting no designs on no toes.!” He gave them $29.00 dollars…then told the girl (she was just sitting there looking so embarrassed.) “All that! All that money…gone! For some feet!” When they told him “Sir, it’s $35.00!” He said, no he Yelled! “YOU DIDN’T TELL ME NOTHING, YOU DIDN’T TELL ME NOTHING…YOU MAY HAVE TOLD HER BUT NOT ME..IM HER MAN…I AM THE ONE PAYING FOR IT…I MAKE THE DECISIONS…!!!!!” Then made the girl walk outta there nails designs half done…didnt let her sit and let them dry so she could put her shoes back on…she had to walk out with the little paper shoes on. I was so disgusted by the whole situation! I am mad that first of all …who gets a any kind of service done AT a place you have never been to before…And not ask the $PRICE$ BEFORE you get it done????? And the one lady he spoke too said..he came down, ask how much it was he said it was fine and that he would go to the ATM to get the money then came back down there and made that scene…
NIGGAS! I SWEAR!
Like Usher stealing Tom’s wife from him in The Boondocks…In the words of the waiter who watched it go down….Wouldn’t let that shit happen to me thoughhh!